Pre-School Freak Out?

So as the weeks tick by and the impending semester approaches ever more rapidly, I have to ask myself, "Am I freaking out?"!

Maybe.  It seems like when I go online these days, I spend an inordinate amount of time looking at parcels of land upon which I can park my Airstream trailer (which, I must confess, has barely registered a mental blip for the past several years, and now suddenly seems vitally important to my overall well-being).

Clearly I'm getting distracted from reality, so what gives?

It is definitely school.  It's something I just don't want to do right now.  I look around at the nurses I work with, and I can't say that I'm at all excited.  Post RN studies do excite me, but what I observe on a daily basis really isn't the end all to be all.  I'm worried that I won't be able to stomach it for two years.  It seems like drudgery...  But I can't get past it unless I jump in with both feet. 

I'm glad I gave City Planning a whirl...  It's something I thought I'd be good at, but I was SO wrong...  I  don't have a political bone in my body.  My brain was suited for it, but my personality wasn't.  Sadly, I think that's the reality for a lot of things that interest me- my personality doesn't gel.  I wish it did sometimes, but I am who I am.  There's no changing that.

Case in point: I've always day dreamed about being an entrepreneur.  I'm not averse to hard work, especially if the overall vision that directs me is internally derived.  But so much of entrepreneurship is the give and take that occurs with clients, AKA "People Pleasing"...  Something that frankly bores me most of the time.

Entry level nursing seems to require a lot of this sort of thing...  God help me!  I can do it, but it isn't who I am.  It will be a stretch.