RHCC

Pondering a return to church...  I'm not sure what my motivation is, or if I have enough interest to get through the door, but at least there's a church not too far away that I can try when I'm ready.  IF I become ready.

Part of "traveling back in time" emotionally with the nursing program has been a mental return to myself at age 20...  Kind of scary.  This whole process continues to be a major downer for me.  Myself at 20- devoted Christian.  I don't long to be that person again.  I was so caught up in that as my identity that I don't think I was capable of being open minded about many issues, and I didn't allow myself to think about issues that were troubling.  I was happy to have my head buried in the sand.  I won't ever be that person again, but I wouldn't mind being the type of Christian that my grandparents were.

I'm happy that when I go on to Facebook these days, my Christian friend seems to have dropped politics...  At least for now.  So perhaps I'm less hardened to Christianity right now.