The Wedding: Final Push

It has been a week.  The rehearsal on Sunday was a lot of fun...  I wouldn't say that I feel ready, but at least we've done a run through.  A few nights ago, the nurses and ward clerk on the floor where I work surprised me with a potluck.  Awesome!  I like everyone that I work with, but I haven't done a good job of getting to know people, so it was totally unexpected.  They also gave me a card with $150 cash...  Gosh!  I feel humbled and touched by their generosity.  Especially considering that noone here at work is invited.  I didn't want to "play favorites", and it would have been too costly to invite everybody, so nobody here is coming.  It's kind of sad, actually!  If I had the whole thing to do over, I might make a few different choices (for example, with timing- a summer wedding would have made it possible for my out-of-state family members to attend).  But no regrets.  This wedding has been a long time coming, so it's better to just do it.  There is no such thing as perfect timing, a perfect guest list, etc. etc.

It's approximately 10 pm on a Wednesday night.  I worked the night shift last night, and today I came in early for the evening shift...  So I'll be out of here in two hours.  Thank goodness!  I had errands to do when I got off work this morning, so it was about 11:30 when I finally got to bed...  And I woke up at 2:30 to get ready to come back in.  So I got all of 3 hours of sleep...  not exactly what I require.

Today before I came back into work, I checked my email, and there was a hello from a friend I haven't talked with for a year or so.  He is another one who is now married and has a baby...  But I didn't find his email weird at all.  We went on a few dates, but we weren't ever an "item"- so I don't think anything is up when I hear from him.  Can men and women just be friends?  I think so.  It depends on the people!  There are men that I know I can't be friends with, and there are others that I wish I'd established a better friendship with when I'd had the opportunity.  It will be interesting navigating all of this stuff as a married woman in a few days.  I don't think R would ever prevent me from being friends with someone because of gender...  he's secure enough that it wouldn't worry him.  But then I don't think I would ever hang out with another man, except as part of a group. 

It doesn't help that I relate to men better than to women...  Relationships with women can be so complicated and catty at times.  Why is that?!  Wow, I'm so tired right now...  I think I need to take a break away from the nurses station (how about a break at home in my own bed!  Two more hours to go!)